Jesus Loves Me?

This is on my mind often.  Why does Jesus love me?  Not only does he love me... he has my back!  He takes care of me, looks out for me, despite my stupid self.  I can't for the life of me figure out why!   I fail Him miserably every single day!

I try to compare it to the love I have for my own children.  It is unconditional.  But they deserve it!  I don't deserve for Jesus to love me.  No doubt about it.  There are so many things.

I am grateful that I am a child of God.  Without him I would have nothing. I am grateful for the mercy and grace He shows me on a daily basis.  I always ask for forgiveness for my sins... how many times can that work?  I am completely and utterly aware of when and where I fail Him and yet, He always takes care of me.  He looks out for me and protects me from my own self. 

I never pray for self gain... I know don't deserve that.. I only pray for forgiveness and pray in thanksgiving for the things I have been allowed to  have and of course I pray for others.  God has always provided me with what I needed no matter of my shortcomings.  It is amazing really! 

Not only does he take care of me, he has given me a talent of playing the trumpet that I can use to glorify His name in worship.  I don't even understand that.  I personally know people who could use the talent I have in a greater way. But God gave it to me?  I am grateful for it and I thank Him for all the time.  Maybe that's it?  He knows my heart and knows that I appreciate being able to play the trumpet and knows that I don't do it for self glorification.  I just don't know.

There are just so many things that I question.  Why am I on the path I am on?  Why am I so weak?  But most of all I just question why God even worries with me?  What is it for?  What am I supposed to do?  If I lived a perfect life from this moment on for the next 43 years I could never deserve what he has already done for me.

So I am ending this with Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.  In all ways acknowledge Him and He will make straight your paths.

and one more:   Lamentations 3:22-24

The unfailing love of the Lord never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction, Great is His faithfulness, His mercies begin afresh each day.  I say to myself  "the Lord is my inheritance, therefore I will hope in Him!"

These are God's promises for me and I am grateful!